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Final Update 07/2024: I am pleased to announce that I have successfully completed my Ph.D. studies. It was challenging, but I kept holding on. Thank you all for your support.

• "You disappointed and hurt me. I don't know what am I going to do with you." // One year later, during a meeting over zoom, when I told him that these words offended me and I do not want to hurt you anymore, he just closed the zoom meeting to my face saying I am not your psychologist.

• "You are like a turtle. You can't even graduate in 20-30 years."

• "You are bad at time management and always lost in details."

• "Your model is junk. I won't write my name on top of this model."

• "Even high-school students won't make the mistakes you do. Should I keep going?" [Me]: "No, please don't."

• He threw a book at me and told me that: "You should learned from it"

• He keep showing his other students Ph.D. and throw in front of me saying: "See how good they are writing, you should write like them, but I don't understand what you write."

• I have 3 other Ph.D. students, I have to work on their papers, thesis, I have classes to teach. I don't time for you. // But later, I learn that he was actually working on some other project that he get fund.

• "I am giving you F to motivate you. I trust you keep working."
• "I never helped that much to any of my student in my life. I don't know what I can do more."
• "I start to understand the way he thinks and explains his work after 4 years. He is very complex."
• "Doing Ph.D. is not meant for you, you don't have enough capacity for it."
• "I cannot compile you."
• "I don't believe that you implemented and tested your code" // I have actually done
• "If I want I can help his journal paper but I will never put a single character on his journal" with a small smile on his face

Then pandemic started in 2019. I have semester multiple semesters and enter into progress again in beginning of 2022 and jury gave me F again and threated me that if I don't submit my journal paper till next semester they will give me the second F and kick me out. Since than, I completely disconnected from my advisor, start to fear from him, but keep working on my journal.

• "You disappointed and hurt me. I don't know what am I going to do with you." // One year later, during a meeting over zoom, when I told him that these words offended me and I do not want to hurt you anymore, he just closed the zoom meeting to my face saying I am not your psychologist.

• "You are like a turtle. You can't even graduate in 20-30 years."

• "You are bad at time management and always lost in details."

• "Your model is junk. I won't write my name on top of this model."

• "Even high-school students won't make the mistakes you do. Should I keep going?" [Me]: "No, please don't."

• He threw a book at me and told me that: "You should learned from it"

• He keep showing his other students Ph.D. and throw in front of me saying: "See how good they are writing, you should write like them, but I don't understand what you write."

• I have three other Ph.D. students, I have to work on their papers, thesis, I have classes to teach. I don't time for you. But later, I learn that he was actually working on some other projects that he get fund from.

• "I am giving you F to motivate you. I trust you keep working."
• "I never helped that much to any of my student in my life. I don't know what I can do more."
• "I start to understand the way he thinks and explains his work after 4 years. He is very complex."
• "Doing Ph.D. is not meant for you, you don't have enough capacity for it."
• "I cannot compile you."
• "I will give you 'F' if you won't complete your paper in 4 weeks."
• "I don't believe that you implemented and tested your code" // I have actually done
• "If I want I can help his journal paper but I will never put a single character on his journal" with a small smile on his face

Then pandemic started in 2019. I have semester multiple semesters and enter into progress again in beginning of 2022 and jury gave me F again and threated me that if I don't submit my journal paper till next semester they will give me the second F and kick me out. Since then, I completely disconnected from my advisor, start to fear from him, but keep working on my journal.