I need to take responsibility for my actions. I need to take responsibility for my actions. There was a behavioral incident. I harassed him. He doesn't want to speak to me anymore.
I will mention that recently I was diagnosed a year ago with both autism and borderline personality disorder (BPD). It doesn't excuse anything. This isn't even the first time this has happened in my life. It's terrible. I've lost so many jobs at this point. There have been so many behavioral and conduct issues with everyone and everything. I'm 28 years old. I'm not a kid anymore. One previous supervisor called me a terrible employee when he fired me. Yea, I have a therapist and professional support. But I'm so legitimately terrified now about everything. I feel like I should just go start over and work at McDonald's.
How do I explain this to future employers? What should I do? Does it matter? Does any of it really matter? No sane person makes issues like this in life. This isn't about some academic issue. It seems like it's just much deeper in who I am as a person. I'm speaking with the department about the best ways to move forward.