I was very passionate about my PhD. The institute, research topic and funding is good. One year has passed and I covered PhD coursework credits with good grades. However, during the last 5 months, I gradually lost all motivation for my PhD.
For the previous month, I did absolutely nothing. We have a weekly meeting. Last week I told my advisor that I was sick and couldn't work. This week, the meeting is approaching and I can't even write 5-6 lines of my research topic abstract (or I don't want to write, maybe due to procrastination). Last week, I gave my advisor some hints that I lost motivation and can't work. He just said it's normal and encouraged me with some concrete goals for this week that I never met.
This situation gives me a strange stress and I face behavioral and mental problems. How to get out of it? I sometimes think to quit the PhD and do a job. But still deep inside me, I want to do PhD and want to do in the same topic and same institute. I feel I'll regret if I quit. Please guide me. I did much online research but nothing helped me. I've been a quite good researcher and published three works in my master degree. But now I feel low energy, exhausted and demotivated.
(this paragraph includes details for diagnostics, skip if you want) In April, I visited my home country for my marriage. I promised my advisor that I would work remotely and will take vacation for only 1-2 weeks during the marriage. But I could not work at home and didn't do any work for 1.5 months. Then I went back to university but missed my wife. I tried to bring her to the country where I study but could not due to visa problems. So, I was always distracted and extremely less productive. After spending a couple of months at university, I lost my mother in my home country and I left university again and came back home. My advisor gave me all the mental support and never pushed me. After spending a couple of weeks at home, I felt like I should resume research. So I emailed my advisor that I want to continue remotely. However, a month has been passed and I did nothing productive.
At the end of this month, I plan to go back to my university and I hope I shall be on track there. However, I am not sure and feel guilty for my advisor.