I have been nominated for a community contribution award alongside another professor in our field, this nomination for serving our research community (scientific activities). The conference is established by the leaders of the field and well-respected professor who nominated me.
This award is the for the first time in the history of the conference, I asked the professor who is also nominated alongside me, he said that he willnot go due to his teaching schedule and I asked him whether this nomination means receiving an ward or not, he said he dosnot have any idea, which make me hesitated whether I should go for the conference in that case (if I go I will present our ongoing work and meeting peers and the leaders of the field).
In the other side, here our project director doesnot want me to go to the conference since I dont have a. publication eventhough the conference registered me as staff( waived fees), my supervisor tried to persuade her, but she didnot want to support my travel from our project budget( very cheap expenditure though).
My question is: Should I persist on going to the conference and I dont know whether nomination means having an award or not in any way maybe would boost my academic career?
In the other side, do you think that my project coordinator refusing to supporting my travel although we explained I am going to (present poster/short paper+ oral presentation at well respected community+ award nomination) is a toxic behavior, actually, it is not the only action, she had many situation bothered me and I am only 7 months in the program, my supervisor is always afraid from her and thats worrying me so much, they didnot seem to support me that much and thats worrying, maybe this a red flag sign to consider other. opportunities or finding other place would support me, what do you think (BTW I spoke with my supervisor, but he said he will try persuade her again, but it seems dissapointing that I am not appreciated and that is my gut feelings).
=====EDIT====== I contacted the organizer and he said the nomination is confidential, I dont know whether this answered my question to. him whether I am going to receive award or not