I have been nominated for a community contribution award alongside another professor in our field, this is a nomination for serving our research community (scientific activities). The conference is established by the leaders of the field and well-respected professor who nominated me.
This award is the for the first time in the history of the conference, I asked the professor who is also nominated alongside me, he said that he will not go due to his teaching schedule and I asked him whether this nomination means receiving an ward or not. He said he does not have any idea, which makes me hesitant whether I should go for the conference in that case (if I go I will present our ongoing work and meeting peers and the leaders of the field).
On the other side, here our project director does not want me to go to the conference since I don’t have a publication eventhough the conference registered me as staff (waived fees). My supervisor tried to persuade her, but she did not want to support my travel out of our project budget( very cheap expenditure though).
My question is: Should I insist on going to the conference and does a nomination, meaning having an award or not, in any way potentially boost my academic career?
In the other side, do you think that my project coordinator refusing to supporting my travel although we explained I am going to (present poster/short paper+ oral presentation at well respected community+ award nomination) is a toxic behavior? Actually, it is not the only action, she had many situations that bothered me and I am only 7 months into the program. My supervisor is always afraid of her and that’s worrying me very much. They did not seem to support me that much and that’s worrying. Maybe this a red flag, a sign to consider other opportunities or find another place that would support me. What do you think? (BTW I spoke with my supervisor, and he said he will try to persuade her again, but it seems disappointing that I am not appreciated, and that is my gut feeling).
=====EDIT====== I contacted the organizer and he said the nomination is confidential, I dont know whether this answered my question to. him whether I am going to receive award or not